Where Does My Energy Go?

There are days when I have plenty of time and very little energy.

There are other days when I’ve done an enormous amount, moved from one thing to another for hours, and somehow still feel quite good at the end of it.

I’m becoming increasingly aware that time and energy are not the same thing.

We talk a lot about managing our time. We make lists, organise calendars, plan our weeks and try to work out how everything is going to fit. When life feels particularly busy, we look for pockets of time we might reclaim or things we might move around.

But I wonder how often we think about where our energy is going.

Because something can take five minutes and stay with us for the rest of the day. A conversation can finish at lunchtime and still be occupying our thoughts at bedtime. Something we haven’t even done yet can quietly consume energy for a week simply because we’re worrying about it.

And equally, something can take hours of our time and leave us feeling better than when we started.

So perhaps another useful way of looking at the lives we’re actually living is not simply to ask:

Where does my time go?

But:

Where does my energy go?

We Don’t Have the Same Amount to Give Every Day

I think this is worth acknowledging before we go any further.

We don’t wake up every morning with an identical supply of energy.

Some days we feel capable of taking on the world. On others, we’re tired before we’ve properly begun. Our energy changes according to sleep, health, stress, work, family circumstances, hormones, worry, what happened yesterday and a hundred other things.

It changes across weeks, months and entire seasons of our lives too.

And perhaps one of the things we can become better at is accepting that reality rather than continually expecting ourselves to operate at exactly the same level.

There can be a tendency, particularly when we’re tired or overwhelmed, to immediately ask how we can get more energy. Should we sleep better, exercise more, organise ourselves differently, improve our morning routine?

Sometimes those things may help.

But I think there’s another question worth asking first.

What am I doing with the energy I already have?

Because there is a difference between asking how we can have more energy and asking how we want to spend the energy we have.

Some Energy Simply Has to Be Spent

Not everything in our lives can be measured according to whether it energises us.

There are things that need to be done.

We work. We care for people. We cook meals, clean homes, answer emails, attend appointments, pay bills, solve problems, drive people places and deal with the endless small pieces of administration that come with ordinary life.

Some seasons require enormous amounts from us. Someone we love may need more care. Work may be particularly demanding. Family life might be complicated. We may be dealing with circumstances we didn’t choose and cannot simply remove.

This reflection isn’t about looking at everything that tires us and deciding it has to go.

That wouldn’t be particularly useful — or realistic.

Instead, I think it helps to recognise the difference between energy that needs to be spent, energy we willingly choose to spend, and energy that seems to disappear without giving very much back at all.

Those are quite different things.

Energy Well Spent

There are plenty of things in life that require energy but are absolutely worth it.

A long day spent with people we love might leave us exhausted. Helping a friend through something difficult can take a lot from us. Exercise requires physical effort. Gardening can leave us aching. Hosting people for dinner takes preparation and cleaning up afterwards.

And yet we may finish those things feeling deeply satisfied.

They cost us energy, but we don’t necessarily resent the cost.

Perhaps that’s because they matter.

There is a difference between being tired because we’ve spent ourselves on something meaningful and feeling depleted because our energy has been pulled in a dozen directions we didn’t really choose.

I think that’s an important distinction.

The aim isn’t to construct a life in which nothing ever asks anything of us.

Perhaps it’s simply to notice whether enough of what we’re giving ourselves to feels worth the giving.

Then There Are the Things That Give Something Back

Some things seem to return energy to us.

Not necessarily in a dramatic way.

It might be walking somewhere familiar, reading for half an hour, gardening, exercising, baking, listening to music, making something, sitting outside, having coffee with someone we enjoy or simply having an hour when nobody needs anything from us.

Sometimes it is a particular person.

Sometimes it’s a place.

Sometimes it’s being alone.

And sometimes it is something surprisingly ordinary.

The interesting thing is that these things aren’t always restful. A walk takes energy. Cooking takes energy. Meeting a friend takes time and effort. A hobby can require concentration.

But somehow we come away feeling more like ourselves.

That seems worth noticing.

Because when life becomes very full, these are often the things we remove first.

We keep the responsibilities and sacrifice the things that restore us.

Then we wonder why everything begins to feel harder.

And Then There Are the Energy Leaks

I think this may be the most revealing part of the exercise.

There are things that take our energy without necessarily taking very much of our time at all.

Worry is an obvious one.

We can spend enormous amounts of energy thinking about something that hasn’t happened, may never happen or is completely outside our control. We replay conversations. We imagine outcomes. We mentally rehearse things over and over again.

There is the energy spent comparing ourselves with other people, worrying about what somebody thinks of us or feeling that we should be doing something differently because everyone else appears to be.

There are tasks we keep putting off. Sometimes the task itself would take twenty minutes, but we carry the thought of it around for days.

There are decisions we avoid making, conversations we know we need to have and boundaries we know we probably need to establish.

There is the energy spent saying yes when we wanted to say no, trying to keep everybody happy, overthinking perfectly ordinary interactions or attempting to meet standards that perhaps nobody except ourselves has actually imposed.

None of these things appears in a diary.

But they can take an extraordinary amount from us.

What About the People Who Take Our Energy?

This is an area where I think we need to be careful.

It has become quite common to describe people as draining and to suggest that the solution is simply to distance ourselves from anyone who requires too much from us.

Real relationships aren’t quite that simple.

There will be times when people we love need more than they can give back.

A friend may be going through something difficult. A partner may be struggling. A child may need enormous amounts of support. A parent may become unwell. Sometimes relationships are temporarily uneven because life itself is uneven.

And one day, we may be the person who needs more.

That’s part of loving people.

But there is still value in noticing patterns.

Is this relationship going through a demanding season, or has giving far more than I receive become the permanent arrangement?

Do I feel able to be myself with this person, or am I continually managing their reactions?

Do I leave most interactions feeling supported and connected, or anxious and depleted?

Am I giving because I genuinely want to, or because I feel responsible for keeping somebody else happy?

Those aren’t questions that require immediate decisions.

They’re simply things worth noticing.

Sometimes awareness is the first little adjustment.

Not Everything Deserves the Same Amount of Us

Perhaps this is the part I’m becoming most interested in.

We can behave as though everything deserves an equal share of our attention and energy.

It doesn’t.

The unanswered message, the mildly irritating comment, the untidy drawer, the thing somebody said three days ago, the decision about what to cook for dinner and the genuinely important issue happening within our family can all somehow occupy the same mental space.

But they’re not equally important.

Sometimes we give enormous amounts of ourselves to things that simply don’t deserve that much of us.

We worry about somebody else’s opinion.

We become disproportionately annoyed by something minor.

We spend half an afternoon thinking about a conversation we cannot change.

We allow a small inconvenience to colour an entire day.

We keep checking something online that makes us feel worse every time we look at it.

Of course, recognising that doesn’t mean we can simply decide never to worry or become irritated again. Human beings don’t work like that.

But perhaps we can become a little quicker at catching ourselves.

This is taking an awful lot of my energy. Does it deserve it?

Sometimes the answer will be yes.

Often, I suspect, it won’t.

What Deserves More of You?

There is another side to this.

If some things deserve less of our energy, what deserves more?

Perhaps there are people you want to be more present with.

Maybe there’s work that matters deeply to you but keeps being pushed aside by less important tasks. Perhaps there is something creative you’ve been longing to return to, or a friendship you’d like to nurture.

Maybe you want more energy left at the end of the day for yourself.

Not necessarily to achieve anything.

Perhaps you simply don’t want to arrive at every evening completely spent.

This is where I think small changes become much more useful than dramatic declarations.

You don’t necessarily need to redesign your entire life.

Perhaps you need to stop checking something quite so often. Say no once. Finish the small task you’ve been carrying around mentally. Let somebody solve their own problem. Leave something imperfect. Protect an hour. Put your phone somewhere else. Stop returning to a conversation that is already over.

Tiny things.

But tiny things can close surprisingly large energy leaks.

Where Does My Energy Go? — Your Free Reflection Printable

I’ve created a printable to accompany this third reflection in The Life I’m Living Collection.

This isn’t an energy tracker, and we’re not going to rate ourselves out of ten every hour or turn our days into another thing to monitor.

Instead, the printable is a way to look at where your energy seems to be going and what you notice when you put it down on paper.

There are three areas to consider:

Energy Well Spent — the things that may ask something of you but matter enough that you willingly give your energy to them.

Energy That Gives Something Back — the people, places, activities and ordinary things that leave you feeling restored, lighter or more yourself.

Energy Leaks — the worries, habits, expectations, relationships, unfinished tasks or recurring thoughts that seem to take more than you want to give.

And then there is one final question:

If my energy is limited, where do I want it to go?

How to Use This Reflection

You don’t need to complete the printable in one sitting.

In fact, this might be one that is more useful if you leave it somewhere for a few days and add things as you notice them.

Pay attention to how you feel after different parts of your day.

What leaves you tired but satisfied? What makes you feel lighter? What repeatedly leaves you depleted? What do you find yourself thinking about long after it has finished? What are you carrying mentally that nobody else can see?

Try not to judge your answers.

If watching television for an hour genuinely helps you switch off and feel better, it doesn’t somehow become less valid because somebody else might choose yoga or a walk.

If a social occasion you thought you should enjoy leaves you exhausted, that’s useful information too.

This isn’t about deciding which activities are objectively good or bad.

It’s about becoming more familiar with your own energy.

And once you’ve filled in the page, don’t immediately start eliminating things.

Look first.

Perhaps the biggest energy drain in your life is something you cannot change right now.

That’s okay.

The value may simply be in recognising that it is demanding, and perhaps adjusting what you expect from yourself elsewhere.

Or maybe you’ll spot one small thing that could change.

That’s enough.

Protecting Your Energy Doesn’t Mean Protecting Yourself From Life

I don’t want this reflection to end with the idea that a good life is one in which we’re never tired, inconvenienced, worried or asked to give more than we’d planned.

Some of the most worthwhile parts of life will take enormous amounts of energy from us.

Loving people takes energy.

Raising families takes energy.

Friendship takes energy.

Work we care about takes energy.

Making things, learning things, helping people, travelling, celebrating, changing and growing can all leave us exhausted.

That’s not necessarily a problem.

Perhaps the aim isn’t to protect ourselves from everything that takes something from us.

It’s to become a little more discerning about what is worth spending ourselves on.

And perhaps, when our energy is particularly limited, to recognise that too.

There will be days when we can give a great deal.

There will be days when we can’t.

Neither requires a dramatic response.

Sometimes the gentlest change is simply noticing where our energy is going, deciding what matters most today and allowing some of the less important things to wait.

Because we don’t need to give everything the same amount of ourselves.

And perhaps we shouldn’t.

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In the next reflection, we’ll look at the invisible mental load — the unfinished thoughts, reminders, worries, decisions and responsibilities quietly occupying our minds.

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Ciara x

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